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Disclosure: I tend to keep my personal thoughts/views ambiguous, broad and untargeted. I also don’t like sharing personal emotions or journeys about myself; for one, I am not that interesting and secondly, I don’t like getting into the nitty gritty things involving my life. I write to express general thoughts or subject matters that I believe people can resonate with. This isn’t a personal diary, more so a personal perspective on life. 

(Photography by Cesar / Location: Abu Dhabi/UAE)


As an individual, I am ever evolving, in my thoughts, knowledge, opinions, taste in culture and lifestyle. The evolution is ever so subtle and only noticeable when reflecting back to the years and decades past. I’m not a believer of firm and rigged decisions (though I used to be), as it won’t allow much room for growth and opportunities in life. It also restricts how one can develop on a personal level and even general life aspects.  

(Photography by Zinah & Rongji / Locations: Marrakesh/Morocco)


Essentially, my evolution can be observed on my blog for the past decade, though I’ve limited the journaling of it. I still remain somewhat the same in certain characteristics, but I am very much a matured and calmer version of myself to my 20s. My work ethic remains the same, my personality a little bit more refined and my lifestyle somewhat wiser, authentic and personal. What inspired me 10 years ago, merely serves as nostalgia presently. I have discovered my inner self more profoundly, more certain and a lot more self-loving, but I have to admit, I am one of the fortunate ones who did not struggle with self-esteem or self-love. I’ve been Kanye Westing before Kanye! I rediscovered what brings my life joy, peace and love; books (my first best friend), blues/classic music, films and travelling. I have nothing but fond memories involving books, travelling and films. My taste in music went through a 360 cycle though and I tend not to listen to new music much, except from artists I already love or new artists I stumble upon. I cultivated my love for these things, exploring them endlessly and keeping an open mind to book/film genre’s and travel locations. Though I enjoy nonfiction books and eccentric films (Tim Burton, Wes Anderson etc) a lot more.

This building in Hong Kong looks like straight out of a Wes Anderson film!
(Photography by Zinah / Locations: Hong Kong & London/UK)


I have a newfound love for cooking, food and coffee (oat milk/soya latte mainly!). I hardly used to cook before 2017, but when I changed my diet to vegetarian, I just started cooking all kind of things and discovered cooking to be very therapeutic for me. I like using fresh ingredients, stay away from canned food or ready-made meals. I like doing it from scratch and experimenting around. Shockingly, my cooking is good (not excellent) but I actually enjoy eating the meals I prepare. As for food, I honestly have the biggest appetite and love eating anything really, I am not fussy and always ready to explore. Ever since moving to Asia, I had to leave my vegetarian lifestyle behind, I managed it for three years, as it’s far more challenging here and my appetite somewhat grew even bigger! As for coffee…I had my first coffee at the age of 21, wasn’t too fond of the taste and never needed it for energy. I’m naturally hyper, so I never relied on caffeine for energy, but as I got older, I appreciate the taste of coffee a lot more. I still don’t need it for energy and can go for weeks without it. 

(Photography by Zinah & Cesar / Locations: London/UK & Beirut/Lebanon)


The biggest change in my life has been how I perceive and practice religion. I’ve always been a believer, but how and what I believe has changed; not in the existence of Allah, but how the lines of culture and religion has been so blurred, they are beyond distinction. There are many that argue that certain cultural practices stem from religion, while others can see clear division between the two. I personally learned to understand that some of the practices are cultural, especially when it comes to gender. However, it’s never indicated as gender inequality, but adorned as rewarding gender roles. Beautifully packaged for women to accept it as the wisdom and practice of religion, expressed to be the step forward to piety and purity. I won’t go into details of which gender roles I am implying to, as I know they differ in culture, societies and even households, but I am certain most women have experienced it or are still experiencing it. 

(Photography by Rongji & Zinah / Locations: Lyon/France & London/UK)


I’ve evolved into becoming an independent thinker and research on materials that both support and contradict my personal opinions and views. I’ve learned that by dismissing the opinions and thoughts of those we don’t agree with, we are limiting our own understanding of a subject matter, whether that’s as simple as food or as complex as politics and religion. I’ve cultured a lot from my own religion, by engaging in conversations with Atheists, Christians, Buddhists and Jews. I started to understand that certain truths are relative and not all factual, believes are nurtured not natured and most importantly that certain realities should not be confused for facts and vice versa. I am ever evolving and what I hold to be true today may change next week, year or decade. An important aspect of my personal development was to not judge before understanding. I’ll give everyone and everything the benefit of doubt to understand first and foremost, but then when views, behaviours or justifications are extreme, best believe I’ll be judging you so hard and walk away. I am not here to play or be a social, political, cultural or religious warrior, I’m a flawed human being but always eager and ready to learn. Additionally, I have learned not to blindly support causes or movements that progress to be important but target the wrong audience; examples various. As I expect from myself, I expect causes to be inclusive, respectful and stay away from being preachy, judgemental, hypocritical and not exclude those who really need to hear it.  

My personal evolution won’t come to an end until the day I die…Well by then, I don’t really have much option do I now? I always hope to encourage my friends and family to embrace growth and not have a determinative final destination on what to believe, how to be and even what to be. This is some of my personal story, if you’d like to share yours, let me know on here. 

Love and Peace!

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I can’t do those frivolous travel posts where the writer who also happens to be the traveller boasts about the dreamy travel destination they have visited. Everything is usually described as strawberry flavoured pink bubble gum. I’m not trying to take a hit on those in la la land, but for me travelling usually involves a wakeup call, where I either discover the bubble I live in or the horror that I blindly embrace. Either way, it’s mentally stimulating for me and invokes new outlooks in life. 

In the case of visiting Saudi Arabia in 2011, the hypocrisy I have realised was upsetting. Besides the very obvious gender discrimination, there was also class and race discrimination, in addition to the unnecessary mass consumption in a city that’s meant to be spiritual and religious. I am sure some of you have read about Saudi Arabia and there are numerous articles, research and books on how ‘barbaric’ and ‘backward’ the country is whilst simultaneously being powerful, oil rich and innovative. Of course, that always dependeds on the narrator’s extractive benefits. But in any case, there are numerous entities involving the current state of Saudi and I am not here to further feed into any existing stereotypes. I’m not particularly fond of the country, to describe the least, but my opinions are as meaningless as anyone criticising Saudi Arabia without constructivism or productive solution. I merely gave this example to briefly outline out that particular travel destination led to my final major project during my bachelor’s degree at the end of 2011...And how visiting Kuwait led me to apply for a master's degree and base my final dissertation on its women.



This longwinded start was to set the scene for my visit to Kuwait in August 2014. If you live in the Gulf region or have previously travelled there, you’re probably already thinking what a mistake it was to travel to the region during a heatwave season. It was hot, like sauna room hot, where you first get hit by a blazing hot air before the sweats follow up. Shockingly, I enjoyed it. What I didn’t enjoy was the temperature drop when going indoors. To this day, I think no one in the Gulf region (or any hot country…Hong Kong, I am including you) thought through the temperature contrast of the outdoors and indoors. It really agitates me, it’s both physically and mentally aggravating for me to go from a warm/hot natural temperature to a cool/cold artificial one. I understand the heat may be unpleasant for most and having a cooler indoors area to escape to is a relief, BUT (and here is big but) can we not go from 50 degrees to 20 degrees?! 30 degrees Celsius difference between one and the other. Meet me in the middle please? Besides feeling a little irritated writing this part, I also feel like an entitled brat making this point, but I hope you understand where I am coming from. 




Anyhow, I have to admit, I practically went to Kuwait without any preparation. Hell, I didn’t even bother googling anything about the country. I planned an almost two weeks trip to escape the long hours of Ramadan in London, to meet Ascia and Dalal and to explore a new culture. Or what seemed new to me. I spent my first two days shocked, just utterly flabbergasted. I travelled with my brother, and this is where I have learned the important lesson about travel companions. They make up a large aspect of your travel experience. He’s more impulsive in expressing his emotions than I am, which meant that he was very vocal about his opinions and views of the place. However, I won’t be publically discrediting his experiences. I equally didn’t enjoy my stay there but was less vocal about it. There wasn’t a point in complaining about a culture I have had yet to experience. What was fairly new for me was the concept of malls, the lack of people’s presence outside of malls and the general lifestyle. I wasn’t sure whether that was due to Ramadan or whether there simply wasn’t much to do in Kuwait besides eating out and shopping. The country didn’t lack authenticity, it simply removed it or ‘renovated’ anything that was remotely historic. I guess it’s aspiring to be the next Dubai and at that time, I’ve only heard about the myths of Dubai (I later found out, it is as described by many). In fact, the Gulf somehow aspires to be more a fusion of United States and Middle East. The lack of public transportation (and the fact that only social class expats use it), the skyscrapers, the malls and the somewhat artificial lavish city life all seems like to come out of an American sitcom…not Sex and the City or Friends, but more like a fancy version of Superstore or any depressing urban city with malls. Do I make sense?  




I guess this is a lifestyle that’s comfortable to many but so different to cities across the Middle East, Europe and even Asia. Kuwait just lacks an outdoors life and tries to make up for it through Arabella Mall and Souk Al Mubarakiya. Both different but more on the outdoors spectrum than the rest of malls. And yes, I have visited every big mall in Kuwait. They all pretty much looked the same to me. I’ve never been too impressed or fond of malls. Besides malls, I visited the Grand Masjid, the Kuwait Towers and public beach. You have to take a taxi everywhere or drive. The food is quite delicious, and I was so happy to eat halal meat that was so tasty. I mean meat in London pretty much tastes like plastic rubber or soggy cardboard and this was before my vegetarian days! Food in Kuwait tastes much better than in London. The people in Kuwait were lovely but then I was an obvious tourist and not an expat or migrant. I will write more about Kuwaiti people I had the pleasure to meet but, in the meantime, I hope I’ve given an honest picture of Kuwait without offence. It’s an interesting place to see but definitely not a place I would visit again. It just wasn’t for me but I have learned a lot, a valuable experience. 







Until next time, love and peace! 

Ps. how different was my style? I dressed like this 6 years ago...this blog serves to remind everyone of my public evolution haha

(Photography by Zak Nur Sharif and Zinah Nur Sharif)

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